Monday, March 5, 2007
I DUN WANNA BLEND IN ANYMORE!! I DUN CARE ANYMORE!!
haiz.............. i dun wan blend in with a group of frens anymore, i dun wanna go find out wad thr r taking anymore, i dun care wad gossips they hv anymore, I JUZ DUN CARE ANYMORE!!..............next time, i would only response 2 when ppl call mi name or when they nid mi or wad so ever, or else i would juz stand thr and watch wad they say and not open my mouth............... until i hv 2 at least.............. i decided 2 change, i dun wanna talk so frequently anymore, i dun wan 2 always tease and or mock ppl anymore(ALTHOUGH DAT IS REALLY FUN) as it would only cause ppl 2 hate mi and dislike mi and i hate it when ppl hate or dislike mi!!! =( haiz, times change, ppl change, and somehow, i oso decided 2 change, change 2 a more QUIET, LONER type of person, i juz dun wanna care abt such things anymore, so 2dae(5/3/07) would b d last time i would b my old talkative type of person, so, i am gonna juz stay a LONER instead of my usual BLENDING IN.................. 2dae so sian, i found out i failed my HCL(OVERALL) than my parents already treat mi like a failure, asking mi if i wan go tuition, or if i wan them teach mi or if i ownself read my alot of chinese books myself............ and my choice is obviously, NONE OF D ABOVE!!................ asking mi 2 go tuition or let my parents teach mi or READ MORE BOOKS!! is like asking mi 2 die, although dying seems like an ideal choice for mi now................ do not noe wad death and hell holds for mi, and i dun really intend 2 find out, firstly i am too lazy, secondly, i am too afraid 2 find out................ haiz, juz hv 2 wait and find out wad d future hold for mi, and wad kind of freakish lookin jerk i would b in d future............... and somehow, i juz do not care...........................
